it's ok. hope does fade. the will to go on seems out of reach but it is ok. the people who cared leave, being lost in a sea of people and feeling all alone. having people hear but not listen, having your insides scream these words so loud you think people can hear your thoughts! having people let you down time after time. still feeling the sting of their actions . being all alone in your bed crying in the dark. being alive but feeling so dead. it's ok. feeling liek at any moment you might break down and cry. just lying there on the floor feeling cold. the people who cared are so out of reach. Your screams reach a deaf ear and then they become silent. so you are just walking around with this moster in you. you ask why you ask how, but no answers are given. when it feels like nothing matters and all the clouds have engulfed the sun it's ok. when no one understands and you are left with this overwhelming numbness no tears are left. when all you want to do is not to feel anything anymore, no more emotion no more sadness no more grief, it is then that i will say it is ok.